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I am a Colorado native, so I grew up loving the natural environment and the wild Rocky Mountains. Until recently, I always considered myself a watercolor artist and felt confined to that little “box” I put myself in. On a quest for discovery and healing, I took a workshop in mixed media techniques. Since that day, I’ve been obsessed – I’ve found a new and different way to express myself and my emotions. I’m on a constant quest to find unusual and discarded “things” to use in my paintings. I’ve used everything from plaster, twine, metal, foil, and even broken windshield glass. It all somehow becomes symbolic in my paintings and signifies a feeling or emotion. Thanks for joining me on this journey and this adventure we call life and art!

Thursday, January 22, 2015

Trust Your Heart...and the Journey!

"Trust Your Heart"

So, it's a New Year, and of course, time for resolutions and "new beginnings".  I have to admit, I struggle this time of year.  I sort of get melancholy and I am not the most optimistic person during this "season".  Everything seems dull and gray and sort of lifeless.  Honestly, I wish I were a bear and could go into hibernation mode until the spring.  

At the beginning of a new year, it seems everyone always has the best intentions and I do too.  But, about mid-January, I have given up on any sort of "resolution" I may have made verbally or in my head.  I convince myself that it was the New Year's Eve champagne talking - not really me.  I didn't mean it...I never would have made that my resolution.  So as you can see, I really, really stink at resolutions and it is a big problem for me.  Keeping this in mind, I decided not to make them anymore.  Instead, last year, I decided to come up with a "word" - one word that would be my mantra for the entire year.  To make it "stick" I decided to come up with an intuitive painting that would guide me through the year.  Last year my word was "Fearless".  Below is a picture of this painting.  A heart rising up out of the abyss upon its own wings.  A flower was growing out of the heart - blooming and becoming and being original.

 Having my own "word" really did help me and I feel like it brought me and my artwork to a new level - almost as if discovering what we could do together.  When I would be so scared to put myself out there, I would look at my little "Fearless" painting.  It's almost like it spoke to me about being brave and being "real".  It told me I could so ahead and step out of my comfort zone.  It whispered that it's OK if people didn't like my work or didn't approve of it or if I didn't play by the rules in creating my work.  It also helped me be somewhat more accountable, if you will.  At the time, I thought this was my own little unique and original idea, but I discovered many other artists commit to this idea as well.  I think it is amazing and wonderful and I wish everyone would do something like this!

So this year, in thinking of my word, I just couldn't come up with anything.  I am taking an online class and one of our first projects included the words, "Trust in the Journey".  I thought, that is so "normal" and I want to be unique and original - you know I AM an artist and so I can be a little weird and different.  That's just how we roll.  My word needs to be profound and sparkle with fairy dust.  It needs to speak to me like no other.  I kept pondering and thinking and making up stuff in my head as to what my word would be.  Then, the funniest thing happened.   I was prompted to say a little prayer, asking for my word.  I had always thought this would be too small of a thing to ask for, there are so many bigger things going on in the universe and how stupid and insignificant of me to ask for a small, little word in a prayer.  But, I did it.  No sooner than I said my little prayer, I got my word for the year.  I didn't want this word, but the answer to my prayer was loud and clear.  I tried to argue...I don't want that word.  Nope, no arguing...that was it, this was my word.  Are you ready??  My word this year is TRUST.  I argued, "but what about my day job and all the turmoil and negativity associated with it and why can't I just do my artwork full-time and how is that ever going to work"??  You know what I heard next (again, loud and clear, by the way)?  "I've got this".  That's all I needed to hear.  My word for the year is "TRUST".  And that is exactly what I am going to do.

So, based on that story, this little painting came to be.  The heart and the words are constructed of pages from a vintage hymnal.  It reads, "Trust Your Heart...It Knows the Way.  I hope you enjoy it and I hope you all have a fabulous and "sparkly, fairy dust" New Year!  




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