"Trust Your Heart"
At the beginning of a new year, it seems everyone always has the best intentions and I do too. But, about mid-January, I have given up on any sort of "resolution" I may have made verbally or in my head. I convince myself that it was the New Year's Eve champagne talking - not really me. I didn't mean it...I never would have made that my resolution. So as you can see, I really, really stink at resolutions and it is a big problem for me. Keeping this in mind, I decided not to make them anymore. Instead, last year, I decided to come up with a "word" - one word that would be my mantra for the entire year. To make it "stick" I decided to come up with an intuitive painting that would guide me through the year. Last year my word was "Fearless". Below is a picture of this painting. A heart rising up out of the abyss upon its own wings. A flower was growing out of the heart - blooming and becoming and being original.
Having my own "word" really did help me and I feel like it brought me and my artwork to a new level - almost as if discovering what we could do together. When I would be so scared to put myself out there, I would look at my little "Fearless" painting. It's almost like it spoke to me about being brave and being "real". It told me I could so ahead and step out of my comfort zone. It whispered that it's OK if people didn't like my work or didn't approve of it or if I didn't play by the rules in creating my work. It also helped me be somewhat more accountable, if you will. At the time, I thought this was my own little unique and original idea, but I discovered many other artists commit to this idea as well. I think it is amazing and wonderful and I wish everyone would do something like this!
So this year, in thinking of my word, I just couldn't come up with anything. I am taking an online class and one of our first projects included the words, "Trust in the Journey". I thought, that is so "normal" and I want to be unique and original - you know I AM an artist and so I can be a little weird and different. That's just how we roll. My word needs to be profound and sparkle with fairy dust. It needs to speak to me like no other. I kept pondering and thinking and making up stuff in my head as to what my word would be. Then, the funniest thing happened. I was prompted to say a little prayer, asking for my word. I had always thought this would be too small of a thing to ask for, there are so many bigger things going on in the universe and how stupid and insignificant of me to ask for a small, little word in a prayer. But, I did it. No sooner than I said my little prayer, I got my word for the year. I didn't want this word, but the answer to my prayer was loud and clear. I tried to argue...I don't want that word. Nope, no arguing...that was it, this was my word. Are you ready?? My word this year is TRUST. I argued, "but what about my day job and all the turmoil and negativity associated with it and why can't I just do my artwork full-time and how is that ever going to work"?? You know what I heard next (again, loud and clear, by the way)? "I've got this". That's all I needed to hear. My word for the year is "TRUST". And that is exactly what I am going to do.
So, based on that story, this little painting came to be. The heart and the words are constructed of pages from a vintage hymnal. It reads, "Trust Your Heart...It Knows the Way. I hope you enjoy it and I hope you all have a fabulous and "sparkly, fairy dust" New Year!